Two more weeks until fundraising deadline and I am freaking out. I still have about $700 to raise and I just feel like I'm getting burned out. Yeah, there's the party tomorrow, but sadly, not that many people can make it. Too many other priorities I guess. I'm so beyond tired that I don't feel as excited as I should. I know I shouldn't be frustrated, but I am. I just feel like I'm not accomplishing much. I AM putting in the work, but I feel like I'm sledge hammering into the wall and I'm running out of resources. At first I really thought I'd make $3,000, but I'll be lucky if I make my $2,800 minimum by the 17th. I was hoping to do the beads for a cause thing like I did for St. Patty's but I'm stuck with 100 beads and no one to pass them out with. I could go alone, but still. We all know I'm too awkard to be doing that, haha! I'll need shots first....
Training hasn't been going too well in recent weeks either. Maybe it's burn out. I guess what bums me out is knowing I'm not going to make my time goal AND my fundraising goal. There is good news though....I GOT NEW RUNNING SHOES! I love them! My boyfriend and his family have been very supportive. I don't know how I can get through this without their love and support.
I don't mean to sound whiney. Really, I don't. I'm just beyond exhausted and frustrated. This whole thing has been harder than I ever imagined. Some of the teammates can effortlessly raise thousands and breeze through the long runs like no biggey. I guess I need to accept I'm not one of them. I do want to do another season, but maybe I need to wait until I can afford it again. Who knows? Probably shouldn't be making decisions right now. Blah!!!!!
If people don't show up for the party, I guess I'm downing some Coronas;-)
No comments:
Post a Comment